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this is a song by neil young.

My biggest regret is going to see that nutcase doctor 4 years ago. Academic success should not have come before mental health.

incredibly disillusioned with life at the moment. i’ve wasted nearly 3 years of my life and it doesn’t seem to be getting any better. i’ve lost the motivation to study and read and socialise. i used to have goals but everything has fallen apart in the last couple of months. it was such a brilliant start to the year. april came and begin locked up in psych ward for nearly 3 weeks took its toll on my relationship. being told on my birthday that i was being dumped is something i will never ever forget. i miss the days where i used to be happy. i’m sick of being sad and having these crazy mood swings. maybe i’m just destined to be crazy. i am so lonely these days i’m not sure how long i can handle it. my heart is broken and i just pretend to be happy. it’s so tiring. i don’t know what i’m going to do.  i feel an outsider to my family and my friends. i miss her so much. but she’s a hypocrite. i tried so hard to be honest but it just backfired………………………………..maybe i’m just shoot up and fade awayyyy.

i feel so lonely & helpless these days

I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy

because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless

and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that.

—Robin Williams  (via lovequotesrus)

(Source: skateeofmind, via runoverand)

Maybe I should check myself in.


The Thom Browne team completed the ALS Ice Bucket Challenge this morning and raised money for a great cause. I love that, but what I really loved was seeing a team laughing and having fun together

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Just took 10mg Ritalin. Instant release. Definitely bares far more of a kick than Concerta. My doctor wants me to take my medicine religiously because, according to him, I have shown little improvement. Apparently my ADD is physiological, diagnosed late, rather than a convenient excuse.

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over the last couple of weeks, i’ve learnt that it’s possible to be content and happy without being unrealistic. sometimes, russians overspend, but german austerity seems to be the way forward - the world’s conservative.

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Drunk!Carl on Twitter is my favourite…

everybody loves drunk Carlos.

i miss his Q&A on facebook, was so fun…